I remember driving out to Ahwatukee that night, and feeling so unbelievably comfortable. Alex told me that I could change all the presets in his car to my favorite radio stations. And i did. Plus Ke$ha's song "your love in my drug" was super popular at the time, and I may or may not have rolled down all the windows and let my hair fly wildly around me while I belted the song at the top of my lungs. I would have never been that at ease with anyone else so early in the relationship. But with Alex, things just felt safe. he made me feel whole, and alive, and excited, and sure, and taken care of.
We got to the restaurant, and I tried to be all timid and girly about my order... "oh, i'll just have one chicken taco, and a water with a lemon please..." But luckily, in this small amount of time alex and i had spent with each other, he had learned two very two important things... i love tacos. and i need Dr. Pepper. So he then orders "5 tacos, 2 chicken and 3 beef. Also i want one dr pepper, and a mountain dew... i'm super thirsty"
I gave him the strangest look and he said, "Just in case you decide you want more..."
And heavens knows i scarfed down those few extra tacos he ordered, and drank that DP like nobody's business. And we laughed and talked and made some awesome memories. It was a simple first date, but it was easy and nice and that's all you can really hope for in a first date... amiright?
"i love you."
he said it. even if he thought i was unconscious he still said it, and he loves me. and it was really hard to still pretend to be sleeping. At this point i figured i better 'wake up'. So i attempted my best fake yawn-stretch-oh-my-gosh-did-i-really-fall-asleep face and just smiled up at him. He played it cool, and didn't allude to the fact that he had just said the L word. and i had to tell him it was time to go home so that I didn't end up spilling the beans that i had totally heard his secret confession.
I wasn't quite ready to say it back. But it didn't take long.